effing stress and depression

child (even though they're now an ADULT): "I'm depressed"
parent: "relax, take a few days off work, you have too much on your mind"
child: (in his/her head): you THINK

We live in a world (or at least i do...) where I have been torn apart and I feel like my heart has been wrenched out of my chest and I'm about to spontaneously self combust (and sometimes I wish that i DID) and i can't share that with the people who are supposed to be closest to me. My parents. My mother makes me want to slit my wrists, because everything she says to me, makes me feel like a worthless, selfish, self absorbed piece or crap, and hell, if my own MOTHER sees me like that, i must be?

I wish people would take a minute to realise how their words, how their actions, and how their demeanor affect others around them. They leave a mark on us, and they can stir up feelings of hate and anxiety and stress and ultimately depression. Not just the 'i'm feeling down' kind, the kind that makes you go to the pharmacy and get drugs you plan on od'ing on, or that make you sit in the bathroom for hours with a razor blade, wondering how long it would take you to bleed out, or the type willing yourself to have the guts to get your father's gun and shoot yourself in the head.

Luckily, for a lot of people these thoughts are easily subsided, friends, strangers, consciences, they convince us that that is not the right way out. We should face the problem. But when the problem starts to be a bitch, and doesn't HEAR you out, sometimes there is no RIGHT way out.

I just wish people would listen, would understand, and would accept that not everybody is like them, in terms of emotions, feelings, goals, dreams and aspirations. Not everybody sees things as their parents, or children. The only way we can truly be happy, is if we accept our differences and love each other for them, not in spite of them.